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Brathen dreams.

The pocket watch slowly ticks, mechanically pushing itself as if it were a burdening task. Brathen sits. His breath is loud and is just as forced as the mechanical watch. He watches and waits for it to stop. It doesn’t. The sunlight catches the stars of dust in his old living room. Nothing had ever really changed in the place, Brathen was not a man of complicated desire. He knew he liked his tomato and cheese sandwiches with pepper and pickles, his coffee black and bitter and there was never any reason for change. The table has been in the same position for the past thirty years, with flowers placed as a centerpiece and the pot plants sat on the balcony as his oldest and closest friends. 

The room was still and silent apart from his breathing and the melancholy tick of the watch. He frowned, why would the watch not stop? Crinkles formed around his eyes and upon his brow. Weary of the relentless beating of the watch he slipped it back into his breast pocket and wandered to the balcony window. The view was fresh and grew. He could almost glimpse his own youth as he gazed at the saplings down below. He knew the area well and it had remained the same, just like the tick tick tick of his watch. He could feel the pulse through his jacket. 

Gardens had flourished and trees had thrust themselves high into the air, no longer could he see the tops from his balcony window. He gazed and watched as flowers burst open in the blooming warmth only to close and shrivel in the cold. Vines tangled themselves up the poles creeping their way to the banisters and curling towards the balcony door. Bushes began to bare fruit and become homes for young critters sheltering and feeding them. Roses enveloped the garden below the window on the ground level. A huge cracking noise thundered and shattered the glass, a tree had lost it’s strength and arms came crashing to the lower botany. 

Silence ringed in the air, everything stopped. Brathen listened carefully, but the ticking remained. Gradually, forms of moss spread over the dead trunk and devoured the carcass. The vines resumed twisting and tangling themselves around his home. He remained still, mesmerised by the movements happening more and more rapidly, enclosing him in his own tomb of shrubbery. The sunlight was being blocked and the room appeared a green tinge and felt warm and muggy. 

Swallowed by the greenery, he put his hand to his breast feeling for the comfort of the watch. Scrapping noises came from each direction and all mixtures of earth colours and twig like shapes were tearing at room. Bugs crawled through the gaps and ferns sprouted through the cracks. Colour filled the room as tropical plants began to flower and gave off strong yet not unpleasant smells. The twisting, cracking noise got louder and came from above. Brathen gripped his golden pocket watch, clinging at it in his wrinkled hands. The bright sun broke through the roof, canopy surrounded the room above him. Gazing in awe and terror at the trees that had created a cavern from his home, he realised a twisting around his ankle. A cold, soft and green vine curled it’s way up his leg and lifted him off the floor. It was gentle and strong. It finally landed him on some remaining debris of his roof. A hush of leaves moving in the light breeze rested his ears and the clear air gave him a new breath.

He stood with the sun on his face, listening to the trees murmur and the birds whisper. But a something was missing, a sense of normalcy, a trusting feeling.

Without looking at the time, he knew. Slowly and sadly he returned the watch to his breast pocket and sat amongst the canopy listening to the world without the constant rhythm of his faithful pocket watch.

Pretty sure Damon Albarn is the love of my life. Such a shame he’ll never know.

Pretty sure Damon Albarn is the love of my life. Such a shame he’ll never know.

-cityoflove:

Eynsham Hall, England

Sooooo pumped for travelling!

I’ve looked at hostels, tickets and visas. All of which terrify me but I can’t wait. EEEE

Epiphany.

Thanks to Connor, some girl named Tina, architecture, a noob band, a shit band and a couple of free drinks, I now what I know what to do. It’ll work… So now, University seems virtually useless except to help pile on more and more debt to something that may never work. 

But I’ll make it happen anyway. 

Pull your little arrows out…

I have this sickness in the bottom of my stomach. I can distract myself but it’s there.  

‘Sick Muse’ by Metric is all I can hear.

I’ve met Brathen.

Brathen always sits in the same coffee shop at four o’clock, always in the booth near the back of the shop. His pocket with three coloured pens, sipping a long black whilst reading a newspaper.

He wears his brown suit and has a forlorn expression on his face. He looks older than his years and he is too thin for his jacket. 

Brathen; the man whose life is summed up in a pocket watch. A creation of my mind and in my drawings, who knew I could find him? Who knew I could him find him at my own work, where everything becomes just as metronomical as his life.

Reason isn’t necessary.

Reactions are strange. Little things set us off, they make us act like apathetic fools. Then huge things happen, we keep guarded regardless the fact we dispose of reason.

I admire that. When there is dramatic change, guarded with little reason is much better than a mole hill of a mountain that has no reason, causes loss of reason for little reason. We waste our energies on minor issues, perhaps hoping for major ones. 

Pretty confused, but I like to think things are starting to see a sense of normalcy.

But then again, I am on here writing ambiguity rather than the foundation of Humanism and the rebirth of culture.

Honestly, what the fuck is going on?

The 36th hour of sleep deprivation. I’m functioning relatively normally with mere spelling mistakes here and there, only twice feeling utterly delusional watching everything swell, shrink and move and a single brief moment convinced the past 48 hours have been part of a dream or imagined state as I was no longer apart of existence.
No I’m not tripping. I’ve just got adrenaline, caffeine, antibiotics and the rationality of a madman running through my veins. Thanks to Pink Floyd things are okay and are worth this delusional state.

The 36th hour of sleep deprivation. I’m functioning relatively normally with mere spelling mistakes here and there, only twice feeling utterly delusional watching everything swell, shrink and move and a single brief moment convinced the past 48 hours have been part of a dream or imagined state as I was no longer apart of existence.

No I’m not tripping. I’ve just got adrenaline, caffeine, antibiotics and the rationality of a madman running through my veins. Thanks to Pink Floyd things are okay and are worth this delusional state.